think happy thoughts..

I need to sleep so I could let my body produce more milk for my bub. But I read blogsecret tumblrs instead. I can’t help ittttt.

“Kelan mo nalamang mahal mo na ko ulit?”

“<insert name>, I never stopped loving you.”

WHAT.

I just heard that from the television. My yaya was watching something and it was sooooo corny I just had to blab about it. Plus the line is so gasgas na. Plus I remembered my ex. Bwaha.

I just know I would’ve said the same thing if ever he asks me when I started loving him again. AMFathetic orayt. But he’s never guna ask that naman no. I just thought of it lang :))

Anyway, he’s a flirt. So I guess he’s found somebody na or something. I shouldn’t care, I know. But I do! Bwaha. Eh ganon eh. Territorial syndrome daw ito. K?

I told him not to inform me if ever he found a new girl eh hahahaha

I secretly cry pa ren sometimes whenever I remember how sweet he was. Then cry some more whenever I remember how mean he was to me. Lalo na when I remember my friend telling me na maybe he was just using me. Oh well towel. He’s an ass. But a very very cute ass. Bwaha.

He still texts me.. sometimes. Just to ask how I was. But I just know na he just wants to make chismis. That’s why I never text him back. Before, I still reply to his “musta na?” pero now, no na. It’s just tiring. Paulit ulit na lang na ganun lang. LANG?? I’m not expecting. Hahahahaha I want to kill myself na.

I wish he’s happy. Really.

(sigh)

I've had you memorized.

Wag na kayong plastik. If you wanna ask about my baby, diretsyuhin niyo na ang pagtanong. Wag na kayong may pa kamusta kamusta pang nalalaman jan. Halata namang makikichismis lang kayo eh.

If I like you, I might answer your question. If I don’t.. (alam mo naman siguro opposite ng I like you)

Wag niyo naren sabihin na namimiss niyo ko at gusto niyo ko makita, dahil alam ko ren naman ang totoong dahilan kung bakit gusto niyo ko makita. Wag na kayong umasa na magrereply ako ng aaawwww.. I miss you too.. cause I don’t. K?

Oh btw, to *******, I know your jealous cause this is the life that you wanted. Kaya naman pag nangangailangan ako tinutulungan and you-care-about-me kuno ka. Now that everything’s going good with me, ASAN KA NA?? Wala na. Selos na selos ka na naman sa buhay ko na pinangarap mo para sa sarili mo pero hindi mo makamtan. Ang plastik mo naman sakin, friend. Ang yabang mo kasi, masyado ka pang materialistic at social climber ever. This just goes to prove that you don’t get happiness with money or fame. Ako paren ang wagi sister. AKO PARIN.

Oh joy :)

Mom.

I'm bored out of my mind.

I went up to my old bedroom this afternoon and saw my red luggage still full of clothes. I haven’t unpacked from my little trip to Zambales and Tagaytay last month :| I’m such a packrat.

Saw my feet swollen again and my baby bump getting bigger and bigger by the day. I can’t stop eating thus the baby won’t stop growing. Goodluck to me.

Our love story..

..parang tayo pero hindi tayo at kahit na balibaliktarin pa natin ang mundo eh hindi magiging tayo..